My sweet sweet Lil Baby Em! What can I say to you right now? Well I can say that i love you more than words could probably describe. I know that I have to take a few calming deep breaths with you but most of the time I’m asking myself how did such an amazing being end up in my life?I know they say that the big sisters in these kind of relationships are suppose to be the mentor, the leader, and the role model. Well that is all gravy, yet I feel that one role has been switched. You have became my role model.
Before I met you I’ve never thought I could look up to someone younger. It just seemed like a contradiction to me. If I am the older one than I assumed that I had the responsibility of being the role model for whoever was younger than me especially when it came to my little. After I found out that I’d be your big you asked me to go dancing Wednesday night and I swore to myself that I would never ever do that as long as I was in college yet I went because it made you happy. All my friends that were there and that were apart of Greek life said that you were a smaller version of me and the tickled me a little bit. After that night I saw you in another light. I began to see all the potential that you had to offer and how you had such excitement when you had a task to complete. That excitement was so contagious that it made me want to be a happy person even when I had to do the most painful thing. You are such a hard worker it’s crazy how you maintain your sanity. I see you running from cheer, to class, to chapter events, back to cheer, work, and family things. Yet no matter how much stuff you have put on your plate you succeed with flying colors. This makes me think, “If my little can do it then there is no excuse for me to fail!” You motivate me in the smallest ways and it’s so crazy to me. I’ve never been a very affectionate person even towards my family, but again you set the mold on how to act towards everyone especially family. I have never seen anyone who is so locked into their family, especially their younger siblings. You show your family, blood and Greek, unconditional love and sometimes that can be the hardest thing ever and it has never been a thought in your mind that whatever they needed you would not turn them away.
I think it’s a little funny that we are kind of opposites if you think about it. I am all about rules, deadlines, to-do lists, etc and you live a carefree life and open the door to fun when it comes knocking and I wish that I could loosen up like you whenever a chance to laugh and cut lose with friends comes along. I have noticed that you have gotten me to go with you to a lot more functions in this past year more than I would have gone to on my own in the past three years. Your light attitude has shown me that life is short, we’re in college, and to not regret anything. it has been a process but I’m getting better at life with you by my side.
You have shown me how to love, to smile, to laugh, to dance with strangers, and to live my life. Because if you think about it Drake was right, you do only live once and my body won’t be able to keep up with my young spirit at the tender age of 80. So little, thank you for pushing me out of my comfort zone and making me want to be like you, to be a better person for myself and the people in my life.
Always and Forever,